The last time I was on deviant art was a very long time ago, well in terms of my life progression. I was lost and alone and found comfort in my work and longed for the pat on the back it gave me.
It was one of the only things that did. But this is the wrong was the way to think about things and didnt do me any favours. especially when my work came back marked low.
It just cancelled out all the good feelings it gave me. I have learnt that my happiness is not based on one aspect and that one thing going reallly well would boost me up and do me all kinds of justice.
The connetion between working hard on a design and getting a high mark is virtually mutally exclusive. A good design is a good design. It is not about fussing on tiny aspects and
getting lost in a thousand hand drawings but a pure and simple concept. I know this now. After my design work I have been taught that everything we need to make life great is here.
and too ramble on and say far too much, I have found everything great (or it has finally been revealed to me.)
I do not need to rely on others or put all my hopes into one box and hold that safe. But to pass them out and hope people give me theirs too. Everyone is pretty sweet and everyone is pretty ugly. it's all about what you see and how they see themselves.
This time has allowed me to bask in now and not stay bitter about the past.
It's not tomorrow or next week i'm looking forward to; it's today